…. after all you are human!
I have a confession to make, for the past two weeks I have not been my usual happy go-lucky cheery and bubbly self. It has been a very tough two weeks full of of multiply emotions where I cried, felt like giving up a lot, cried some more, been overwhelmed and anxious and cried once again, but I have come out on the other side and although I don’t feel perfect I am definitely a lot better.
For the past two weeks I have been fighting an inner battle due to numerous events leading me affecting me in a negative way. It all started on the 30th November where I received some not-in-particular happy news which affected me a lot more than I thought it would. In addition to that, I had four assignments due by Friday 11th where I couldn’t even prepare for three as we were given the task on the day. For following week small little things were bothering me and I was running low on motivation, co-operation and I just wanted to hibernate. That’s when I realised I wasn’t being myself as the person I showed others didn’t reflect how I actually felt.
I feel that we believe we need to hide our ‘true’ emotions and constantly portray someone who is happy, smiling, confident and has it together, even when we don’t. But my questions is why? Why do we have to pretend to be someone we’re not, why do have to be strong all the time, why can I not just be me and why can you not just be ‘you’. Is it from society, our friends, family, work colleagues, partners, children? Where is it written that says we need to be okay all the time? It isn’t! It is something we have adopted, something we have done to hide our feelings and not communicate to other people. In my opinion, this is partially a reason as to why people go into depression, anxiety and overwhelm because they can’t show or choose to hide their reasons. However, I’m here to tell you that sharing how you feel with someone you love and trust will help as you know that you are not alone or by yourself. There are people who love and care for you and sometimes you just need to reach out and ask for help, and watch them accept you for who you are, flaws and all, happy or sad, they’ll be there.
Until next time,